Kei and Rei's Picture Perfect Chapter 5

' Are you gonna stay the night?
Doesn't mean we're bound for life,
So, are you gonna stay the night? '

Stay The Night by Zedd feat. Hayley Williams.

I closed my bedroom door and took a few steps to my bed. I removed the sweater to reveal the nightgown which was quite revealing. It had a low cut at the section of the neck, and exposed half of my breasts. The nightgown was only hung onto my shoulder by a pair of thin straps on each side, and the bottom had slits, which revealed my legs whenever I took a step. I never wore a sweater at nights actually, considering that there were only me and Miku around the house. But since we invited Kei and Mio to stay the night, I realized that it might be inappropriate. To Kei of course. I was sure Mio wouldn't mind me walking with only my towel on around but I had to cover up for myself.

As I hovered onto my bed, laying on my left side, I suddenly remembered the little conversation I had with Kei just a few moments ago. Although I was the one who initiated the conversation, I'd still think that he would lure me to talk about what almost happened between us. At least say something, but no. He didn't even mutter a word about it

I was not even sure if he felt the same way about it, or if it could become a huge deal. But apparently, he didn't even mention a word about it, leaving me confused and annoyed. I still yearned for an explanation to something which I still was not sure of.

I was tossing and turning in my bed, guessing about what Kei thought about me, particularly about the incident. Before I could find an answer to one too many question at the back of my mind, I fell asleep.

It was pitch black. There were no sounds or any sign of life in that darkness. I tried to visualize something of that nothingness but I couldn't bring myself to figure out where I was. As if I was thrown into a confined room with no window, padded with soundproof walls.

Absolutely nothing.

Then suddenly, there was a sound of water droplets falling on the ground, as I could feel myself soaking wet from the droplets from the sky. I opened my eyes and blinked for the first time. It was raining, but my vision was a complete blur. As I blinked for the second time, I gained even more vivid vision of the scene.

It was raining. I was lying on the ground. Without looking at my surroundings, I collected every strength left to stand up and figure out what just happened before it got pitch black. I finally got the whole image of the place, I was standing in a road, where the rain was falling heavily and where the ground I was standing at greeted scattered bits of glasses. As I followed the trail of the glasses bits, I finally came to a stop.

I knelt down in front of a familiar car which had turned upside down. I saw a hand lunged out from the wide open passenger door. My eyes crept in to see to whom that arm belonged to.

To my surprise and horror, it was someone I know very well. His body was stiff. There's no sign that he could be breathing.

It was a man I knew. And if this was the same as the tragic incident, I would find my fiance laying there stiff, with his eyes closed, leaving me breathlessly as I watched him lying dead.

But it was not the same. And that was not my fiance whom I loved ever since we first met at college.

It was somebody else. It was Kei!

No.. no.. this can't be! I screamed to myself. It couldn't be Kei.. that was a dream.

I just got to know Kei, he can't be dead now! No he can't! I can't afford to lose another soul which I have grown attached to!

Instead of weeping in agony, I reached out to him, and shook his shoulder as I yelled out his name. " Kei! Kei, please wake up! ", there was no respond. I cried bitterly, but still had not given up. Now with an even louder voice, " Kei! Don't leave me! Kei! " I kept out calling his name. To my despair, the stiff body didn't even move and inch. I cried out his name with my loudest volume ever.

" KEI! "

" Rei! Wake up! ", I was struggling when I opened my eyes. I could feel the warm tears coming from both eyes, as I recalled the scene before my name was called. I muttered, " Kei.. ", still having no clue what was going on, I called out Kei's name with a slightly loud voice.

" I'm here.. Rei.. ", I was looking down to a slightly bigger hand holding mine. I looked at the person who had been holding my hand, who had been calling out my name. I saw him in front of me. Alive and breathing. Kei looked at me, with his pair of concerned eyes. He looked worried and afraid at the same time.

I could not believe what I saw, and raised my hand to feel the skin of his face. It felt warm somehow. My lips formed a smile, and I felt relieved seeing Kei. I wrapped my arms around him who sitting at the edge of my bed. At that moment, I didn't even care.

What mattered to me was that he was alive and well. He was not dead.

I wept while hugging him. I muttered. " You're alive.. I thought you're gone.. ", I could feel his hand brushing my back. I wore a nightgown which exposed the back. He patted it attempting to comfort me and then pulled himself away to look into my eyes. I still hadn't figured out what happened. I was still traumatized by the visual of him laying dead, replacing the image of Yuu. As I gazed into his charcoal eyes, he spoke. " Rei.. it's okay.. I'm here. You just have a bad dream. "

His fingers trailed towards my hair which fell passing my forehead. He tucked the strands of hair to the back of my ear, revealing my teary eyes. I was dreaming? I thought to myself. As my conscience slowly took over my mind, I began to process everything and realized that it was all just another nightmare.

" I was in Yuu's room, when you suddenly screamed my name.. I thought something went wrong and I just barged in.. I was so worried that you might have that dream again...", for a moment I saw the light coming from outside my window reflected in his eyes, showing the tears on his bottom eyelids. It could fall down anytime now. " I thought you called my name.. because someone was trying to take you away or something. " he let out a small chuckle. My eyes were still glued to his. As he placed his hand on my cheek, wiping my tears away with thumb, he continued.

" I can't forgive myself.. if anything happened to you.. I failed once.. I'm not gonna repeat the same mistake again. " He spoke with a strict tone in his voice. I could see the determined expression in his eyes.

I raised my hand pressing his closer against my cheek and sighed. " No.. you won't.. I'm just happy that you're alive and it was just a bad dream.. I fear that I might lose you.. like I lost Yuu.. ".

I sobbed lightly, and it sounded more like a whisper. To my surprise, Kei's eyes seemed to display a sense of discontent. As if Yuu's name triggered something in him to make his next move onto me. That soft expression he had when he confessed to me of how afraid he was immediately changed into a vague one.

His eyes were locked into mine. Suddenly, he grabbed me by my waist, then pulled me closer in a very quick pace. His left hand clasped onto my right hand. It was too sudden for me realize what was happening until I could feel his lips brushing against mine. He kissed me. My eyes were shut the whole time, but to my own surprise, I actually liked it. I began to pull his body closer as the sensual feeling begin to send signals to every inch of my body. I could feel his hand clutching on to my hair, as he pressed his lips over mine.

How long has it been since I made love to anyone? Months? Years? Because I almost forgot how it felt like and I wanted to remind myself so bad that now I began to lust over him.

His now moist lips, began to trail from my lips to my neck. At that very moment, my eyes opened, as I let out a huge breath. My hand was stroking his hair aggresively while he was kissing my neck when I suddenly saw the silver ring on my finger. I gasped, and shoved Kei's body away. Kei looked startled, and waited for me to say something. I didn't even know why I reacted that way. As if I still abide by the rule where I would never cheat on Yuu as long as I still wear the ring on my finger. As if I was still tied to him.

My hands were still on his chest, a result of pushing him away from me. I looked down and my tears started falling again. Before I could say something, Kei muttered with a solemn voice, " I'm sorry.. I didn't know why I just did that. " my eyes raised to look into his, but those dark eyes were covered by his messy bangs. I reached in to stroke his hair covering his eyes but he raised from my bed before I could do so. " I think you're okay now... I guess I should be going too. ", he was about to walk away when suddenly my hand automatically took his hand and said, " No! Please... stay with me tonight.. ", I begged him, his back was still facing me.

He turned around, and this time, displaying a set of glistening eyes. " I can't... I just don't trust myself with you.. ", he looked away, mumbling shamefully.

I couldn't let him go just yet. My hand gripped around his wrist but I loosened the grip a little. I couldn't fall asleep not knowing his whereabouts. Not after that dream I had. That thought of losing someone, haunted me. I couldn't bear to feel that way anymore. Even if I had to break some rules to make him stay. I pulled his arm closer to me, and looked at him into the eyes and said. " But I trust you, Kei... I just couldn't fall asleep... if you're not around.. I wanted to be sure that you're safe.. I can't keep still.. if you're not here, Kei.. so please.. stay.. ", I stammered, as I braced myself to hold back the tears. He stared into my eyes, as if scanning me to make sure I didn't change my mind.

But I still wondered that moment when I begged him to stay the night. Was he so important that I wasn't willing to let him go? Or was it just another syndrome of being traumatized after losing someone you love? But Kei wasn't even somebody that I'm bound to, at least not before we shared the kiss. I remembered.. we just had our first kiss. If it wasn't because of me, it could have been more than just a kiss. Frankly, the lust I had for his affections and touch still hadn't ceased but I was still able to control myself. I didn't know about Kei though.

After a long moment of silence, Kei finally spoke. " Alright.. I'll stay.. until you fall asleep.. but no more than that. ", I wasn't satisfied with his answer but it was still better than nothing. I nodded and with his hand still in mine, I lay down, putting my head down on my pillow. He bent down as well, and then sat at the edge of the bed, looking at me with such delicate expression. Gracefully stroked my hair as I looked at him. His eyes were still attached to mine, and as we looked into each other's windows to the soul, nonchalantly, he bent down and kissed me on my forehead instead on my lips.

As he pulled his lips away, I blinked, and our eyes met again after that. Behind those lips, there was a hidden smile. By then, I knew that he wasn't plan on going anywhere. He just wanted to keep me safe, as he waited for me to close my eyes and I did after a few moments, with his hand still in mine. I fell into a deep slumber, welcoming the embrace of that memorable night.

I woke up to the morning sunlight which crept through the slight opened curtain. My eyes hurt when I tried to open them at a first blink and after a few blinks, my eyes adjusted to the exposure and I turned around to look at the clock which was placed on my table. I had slept facing the wall, and when I turned around, I found myself to be looking into the face of a man. I nearly screamed but I managed to contain it and let out a loud gasp instead. My gasp woke him up and sat up immediately as if pulling himself from the gravity of the bed. He jumped out of bed when he realized I was awake. I almost giggled when I noticed his awkward blush. It was adorable seeing him embarassed but I couldn't be more embarassed as I remembered what I was wearing. I immediately took hold of the blanket and covered my upper body. Perhaps I was too dense the night before, and didn't even care about my appearance.

I glanced at his outfit and noticed that he was only wearing a white t-shirt and a pair of shorts, but I had to remind myself that this proved that nothing extreme happened between us last night. It was too dark to know what he was wearing last night. I rewind the scene in my mind, and had to pause after I remembered the kiss and when we made out. Suddenly, I remembered what he said about staying with me not more than after I fell asleep. Looked like he stayed with me throughout the night. Although touched by the thought, I still convinced myself that maybe he fell asleep waiting for me. Maybe he wasn't even planning to fall asleep with me.

Kei glanced at me, blushed with a 50 shades of red on each side of his cheek. I could tell that he was really embarrassed and I waited for him to explain himself. Awkward silence again made it's way through the air we breathed in, and as Kei let out a sigh, he spoke, with an unusually softer tone, breaking the silence between us. " I'm sorry.. I fell asleep with you.. you looked so peaceful.. so.. ", he couldn't even finished his sentence as he brushed his face with his hand. Probably trying to cover his reddened face. " .. I'm gonna go now.. excuse me.. ", he walked out of my room leaving me blank. I still haven't said anything to him..I haven't even wish him good morning. But the air felt so tense between us that I couldn't even say anything to save it.

Though I couldn't explain to myself why we felt so close to each other the previous night and even kissed. We acted so natural as if we were a couple. Those words we said to each other had never felt more right. The kiss still lingered on my lips, and I could still feel the touch of his rough skin against my smooth one. Kei acted so spontaneuosly that I drowned to my own senses and rewinding that moment repeatedly. Now we were back to that awkward state again. I really have no idea what's going on between us. It never really occured to me that our first kiss could have been achieved that way.

The dream I had last night was so vivid..
It felt so real, I could still feel the throbbing pain in my chest as I recalled the scene where I saw Kei in that state.
What if the dream came true?
Will I be able to accept the death of another man in my life?
Can I afford to live again after that?

My mind kept searching and searching for answers which will become my guide. After listing every possibility that may become a reality which I have to face alone, I became more aware of the situation Kei and I shared.

I knew what needs to be done.

The next time I see Kei, I will tell him how I really felt about this uncertainty.

I will definitely won't hold back.

As I looked at the silver ring wrapping around my finger, I knew that this must be settled as soon as possible.

I knew that I made the right decision.

At least for that brief moment, it felt right to me.